a new begining

It is a new year for me, 

a new beginning but I kicked off this year on a wrong note. 

This has to just change. 

I have lived my life with very few things to appreciate, 

been bitten too many times and this has to just stop. 

I never go for the best I settle for what fits. 

I am so done doing this, I can be settling for what is available. 

My homeboy Jay says “don’t be good be great” 

I just don’t want to be good I want to be great. 

I am so done being second and being secondary. 

I will be great and I will be number one.

Cut the chase and own the space. 
My struggle goes to my son he is the only one I owe an explanation to.
i wont kiss ass anymore, bitches dont appreciate they drain.
nothing you do goes appreciated, just criticized.
happy new year to me, that's whats up!  

word up Nick

hey bro,

its been a while, i hope you holding up well and heaven is a great place.
i am here trying to figure out how to deal with this life.
i know you watching so you know the deal, i have made several mistakes
and they are keeping me down by the day, ask God to give me another chance
i feel like i need a new page in life and start over the right way.

all in all, nothings happening that will make headlines, same old same old
i have gotten at peace since you left, i know you in a better place.
it took me a while but you always in my memories like every other time
i was just dropping some words to show you i miss you
keep the party going until we meet again bro.